Its great to have BrotherSoh back from camp. Back together with the Sohfamily. He just heard the news about Preston, when he called back from Camp. I know how he felt. And it seems that he really knows how to keep he's emotions, and Im proud of him being that way. Our family bond, has certainly grew better after all these happened. And I really thank God for that. Mum is back to her crappyself, and Dad, back to he's serious, hardworking attitude. It takes quite awhile to accept all these matters, especially your loved ones. Telling yourself, "Rejoice. Cause he is now enjoying he's time now in heaven, with God." It seems so easy to say all these, but you know, its pretty difficult to take it in. Slowly it becomes one of the wounds in your heart. Seeing something, or even hearing a certain song, that reminds you of that loved one, it may hurt even harder. That day, when I went back to Mandai, it reminded me of that very day, when I was there, last month. That time for my friend, Philip, and now, my very own love one, Preston. "Will I be here again next month?", I questioned myself. The Cremation part this time, I couldn't take it. Seeing the flames slowly touching the coffin, and the hot steam that comes out after. I said a little prayer after. God heals the broken-hearted. He takes away the wounds. Dying on the cross for us, aint just a show. But it tells us that He's willing to take all the pain for us. God our comforter.
Whenever the clock tells me, its 9pm, I'd run out to the livingroom, to catch my (you can say favourite) chn8 tv show. Well, yesterday's episode was kinda weird. Talking about reincarnation and all. About how they believe that once a person pass on, the particular soul is believed to have been reborn also known as, the rebirth of a soul in a new body. And that reminds me of Preston's family. They somehow believe in all these stuff too, and it kinda hurts me. Who, when, where, what, how, are they goanna receive salvation?
After the Cremation, we went to visit my old neighbours. Little franfran, alexia, Aunty Amy, Uncle Tom, Aunty Nad, Popo. It was good to see them again. They comforted my heart a little, with their playful smiles, hugs, and "I MISS YOUUUU"s. I missed them too. Their house is indeed bigger, and nicer. And I totally loved the kids room. It sorta gave a "oh-so-cute", girly feel, with the mosquito nets hanging around, making it all look so princessy. I WANT MY OWN ROOM. rar. Mum shakes her head. *pouts* Share a room with Brothersoh?, Half brown painted wall, Red on the other side? Brothersoh, shakes head. *pouts* Gosh. Im gna spend the rest of my teenage sleeping nights with my two noisy sisters. RARRRRRRRRR. HELLLPPPP. I shall get married earlier. muhahaha.
Neighbourssssss.
So some of the youths are at my place. Dont know what their doing either. I shall go be a good host, and entertain them now. tata (:
Even a "stranger" can show as much encouragement. Thankyou.
